I need help I feel like I have lost my dignity, my self-esteem, and my sanity. I was in a on and off again relationship with my high school sweetheart for 13 years (1992-2005). I went away for college (only 2 hours) but would come home on a regular basis to see him. When I graduated I moved back home but after about 2 years I got a job 2 hours away. I was gone for about 15 months before I moved back to be closer to him. That was October 2004. In February of 2005 I found out he had been cheating on me, I thought we were trying to work through it but I kept catching him in lies so about April 2005 he broke up with me. We never lost contact but rarely spent time together and have had no physical relationship since October 2006. He would always tell me that he just didn’t want to be in a relationship right now but I kept tabs on him and noticed he remained in contact with the female he cheated on me with. In November 2006 I found out she was 4 months pregnant which he said he didn’t know if it was his baby or not. This story was told up until after the little girl was born in which he had not gotten a DNA test like he said he would but claims her as his own. He keeps telling me that the girl is just his baby’s mama, she’s not his cup of tea, and he doesn’t want to be with her. He will call me up just to say how much he still loves me but I never see him. I am an emotional wreck right now, I feel like my heart is being ripped out over and over again. I’m tired of the lies and I want to know what is up with him. How can he just treat the person who’s stood by his side for 13+ years like nothing? I really love him but I can’t take this treatment anymore. What should I do and what do you think his problem is?